This isn’t necessarily one of those deeply inspirational blogs, but it’s written out of pure transparency.
I like to call myself a former burnout queen but the truth is, I’m further down that burnout scale than I would love right now. For the past year nearly I’ve been working 40-60 hour weeks again, never really switching off and that’s shown.
I’ve gotten ill, frequently.
Some of my old burnout symptoms are showing up (regular tension headaches/migraines, back pain, insomnia flare ups, low mood/depression).
Here’s what I know.
There's this kind of assumption that comes with being a professional, that our careers are more than jobs.
It's the first thing we say 'Hi, I'm [NAME] and I'm a [JOB TITLE]', like our job titles or industries somehow describe us.
I spent so long working my ass off to qualify as a lawyer and when it happened... there was no particular fanfare or sudden feeling of smug satisfaction. I walked out of the office a paralegal, I walked back in a solicitor. Nothing changed. Not even my salary (ahem!).
Have you had it yet?
That creeping feeling of 'is this it?'.
Honestly, I’m so resistant to even writing this. I’ve been putting it off all day. Even as I’m writing it I’m stopping, kind of willing myself not to share this.
See, all day long, I’ve been receiving emails from people’s mailing lists and seeing facebook posts about how 2018 was so amazing, about what people are planning for 2019, about being the best you yet.
And, enlightened and mindful as I am, I want to smack ‘em all in the face.
Guess how my New Year started?
Learning to leap
I've never thought I was much of a risk taker. Goody two shoes, never even had a detention, always on the right side of the rules; just this week someone accused me of being no fun at parties because I have a working knowledge of GDPR and what is and isn't permissible (and care).
But what I have learned is that I am a genius at taking calculated risks.
At taking the leap that others simply are unable to.
This is not my cat.
It became a bit of a standing joke in the last few years of my legal career.
‘You want a home visit? Do you have any pets? No, I don’t have allergies, I just only visit clients who have dogs. Don’t worry about chairs I’ll spend most of the meeting on the floor’